“I have been crucified with Christ and I no longer live, but Christ lives in me.
The life I now live in the body, I live by faith in the Son of God, who loved me and gave himself for me.”
Galatians 2:20 NIV
I wonder, do you wake up humming a song as if you were singing while asleep? Or maybe you have woken up with a word on repeat in your mind. I am sure I am not the only person this weird. Today, was one of those special kinda days. I woke up with the words of Galatians 2:20 on repeat “I have been crucified with Christ and I no longer live, but Christ lives in me. The life I now live in the body, I live by faith in the Son of God, who loved me and gave himself for me.”
Let me tell you a secret, I have a history with Wednesdays. The thing is Wednesdays start early, typically with fighting children at sunrise. This, friends, is usually before school drop-offs. It then has the audacity to cut into my alone time with God. Which means, by the way, that I may be grumpy and impatient all day. Honestly, only time with Jesus has the power to make me a remotely ‘nice’ person. Furthermore, within Wednesdays, I have discipleship meetings throughout the day topped by youth service at 6 pm. Wednesdays are full.
While I enjoy actively serving God through loving his people I sometimes feel anxiety creep in, showing itself in the form of insecurity. I have identified insecurity in my life as a sign of fear: fear of rejection, fear of failure, and just plain ol’ fear. Insecurity often reveals the places I still doubt God. It reveals to me how I worry about his care for me. So when I woke up with the verse in my mind, God was already prepping my soul. You and I, my friends, have been crucified with Christ, that means we will suffer and do uncomfortable things like fending off fighting kids too early in the morning or have conversations that have been put off or get rejected. Crucifixions are not pretty. Everything about it is awful. I will take daily crucifixion to be able to have the life of Christ lived out in and through me.
If you are having a day like my Wednesdays, or maybe every day feels like Wednesday, hold on, morning is coming.